I am sad......

Today started like most days, get up, get kids up, get kids ready for school, get self and Nicky ready, take kids to school, and run errands(if I have any), then come home. All was well until I pulled into the driveway and started crying.
It doesn't take much for me to cry, in fact the past year it seems all I have done is cry. June 19th is just around the corner, and I am dreading it! Dave will be at work, the kids will be at school, it will be just Nicky and I. For those of you who are reading, and don't know me, my dad passed away last year on June 19th. As the day grows nearer, the sadder I become, it has been almost as bad as that night a year ago when I watched him say goodbye, and take his last breath. My heart still aches. I miss him so much, and although I know I will see him again someday, I want him here now! My kids miss him too, Nicky especially talks about him almost daily. He asks all the time if papa can come home now......How precious is that? How do you answer that? The innocence of a three year old.
Anyway, that's about it here. I am sad. Nothing more, nothing less, just sad. And so life goes on, with out my dad, I will survive. I will come to a better place and not be so sad. For now, I will just miss him, and cry in the driveway when I need to!