Why???

Does anyone know why? Why on earth is it that every time you start feeling good, and normal, everything crashes down again, and you feel like your heart has been ripped out of your chest again?????

Grief drives me NUTS!!

This and That

Don't have much to say, so this is going to be a bunch of ramblings......



First, I made it through the 19th, Thank you to my friends who thought of me that day. It was a bit sad, but all in all OK. I miss him so much! I think Father's Day was harder than the 19th.....



The kids are out of school. They have attended Vacation Bible School this week, so it hasn't really seemed like they are out yet. They have enjoyed their time at VBS, but I think they will be glad when it is over so they can enjoy being out of school.



We are leaving for a camping trip on Sunday. I think we all need it, and I can't wait! We are headed to the white mountains, please pray for good weather! 3 kids in a tent during rain, NOT FUN!!



We were blessed by a friend, and received a soft-set pool, we just got that up yesterday, not quite running yet, but soon! It's 12 ft. x 3 ft. so should keep us cool for the summer!! Thanks to the Major's!!



Not much else going on here. Here are a few pictures, I'll post camping pictures when we get back!

The family being silly!

Best Buddies digging in the sand!

In Loving Memory

My Dad, Bob Bridges

10/15/1947 - 06/19/2007

Missing you so much, and loving you always!

Love,

Tracy, Dave, Katie Bear, Dude, and Lip Stick Boy

Happy Father's Day!

Dear Dad,
I love you and miss you more than ever. It was a day with mixed emotion, I had a hard time picking out cards for everyone but you. I wanted to, but I guess I can't keep buying cards to just go unopened and sitting by your urn now can I? This whole weekend has been hard, and I am sure Thursday will be the hardest. My heart is still in so many pieces, I miss you and think of you everyday. You were the BEST Dad a girl could ask for, I wish we had a few more years together. You will always be in my heart, and you will be forever missed. I hope Father's Day in heaven is really a wonderful thing.
Love,
Tracy

To my big brother, HAPPY BIRTHDAY(Belated)

This post is for my big brother, yesterday was his 41st birthday. Aside from my father, my brother has always been another of my hero's! He seemed so cool growing up, and I wanted to be like him, THANK GOD I am not!! :) Just kidding!
I remember how he was such a dare devil growing up. It seemed that he was always hurt. I remember the time he ran into the front porch playing football(or was it baseball?) I remember the stories of when he split his head open with the axe in one of the foundations of a new house being built, I remember when we(my mom, dad, brother and I) were shopping in Portland and he rolled over the Brat, I remember when I was on the couch with strep throat and he was beating up my other brother and they broke the leg off the couch,I remember the time dad was chopping wood and hit all three of us in the head, I remember the time he was helping dad fix the motorcycle and dad accidentally cut his finger off, and of course I remember the valentines day when he sent both me and my mom flowers. Bet you don't remember that do you??
Anyway, I just wanted him to know that I have always looked up to him, and I love him very much. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIG BROTHER! Hope your day turned out to be a good one!

Love,
Tracy

No sleep

I was up a million times last night. First had to use potty(yes I have a little one!), then I thought that I heard the little one screaming/crying(but he wasn't), then my loving husband knocked over a bottle and woke me out of a nice sound sleep at 4:00 am. That was the end of my sleep for the night!

The only good thing about it is that I have done 2 loads of laundry, ran the dishwasher and unloaded it, cleaned most of the kitchen, and got on here to blog! How about that. I can accomplish something if I put my mind to it (and get up at 4:30 !)

We went to the Sea Dogs game last night and we really had a great time in spite of getting rained on. Yes we were fools sitting there while it rained, but the game was good. We did eventually leave, I was getting cold. When we left the Sea Dogs were wining. I don't know the final score!

Today is early release day, so there will be no rest(a.k.a. NAP) for me today :( Oh well, maybe I'll actually get the house clean! YEAH!